Aug 9, 2015

Homesickness is freaking real!

For the past week, I have been battling against this extreme boredom. Boredom from sitting all day long in front of the computer, doing the same projects, meeting the same people, eating the same food. All these, over and over and over again. It's like eating the same meal forever.

I feel bad, mad and exhausted. Weekends turned dry. My skin started to sag and now I got pimples squatting on my forehead. 

What happened? What went wrong? Did I make the right decision in leaving the country? Or maybe I just miss home. Or this never-ending quarter-life crisis. I don't know. All I want is to get out.
I remember my first week here, I was like a toddler amazed at almost everything. From the simplest thing, like how their money looks like, how their train system works and how it is up in the Petronas twin tower. 

My eyes lit up when I bumped in to something new. I was very keen to new experiences. And I was willing to try every little thing that interests me. I even bought a ukulele, which, I could say one of my best purchases so far. I also went shopping on weekends, seen movies, eat out and check out new places. 

But then, this happened. Boredom cut in. I suddenly felt like all these stuff doesn't contribute to what my memory will remember one day when I get old. I felt tired. I didn't want to talk to anyone. I didn't feel like eating. Even my comfort food didn't work. I thought, maybe I was sick. Maybe I was homesick! This must be what homesickness feels like. But it's only 5 months since I left the country. 

At the back of my mind, I was starting to accept the facts that one, no one is exempted from this seemingly epidemia. And two, you are your only remedy. 

I don't know the duration of this sickness but I think it depends on ones mind's ability to counter homesickness. 

I read OFW blogs and they mentioned some tips about battling homesickness. Some go out more often, some get a new hobby. Perhaps it's just about how to fill in your free time with activities that are productive and beneficial to your growth as an individual. 

Other ways are establishing time to communicate with your family and friends, meeting new people (which I did and it helped me become more interested in the country I am in), learning how to cook (if you don't know), reading books, learning a new language and more. You just have to be creative in your own ways.

As for me, I downloaded new apps, Ebooks and throw myself back to swimming. The ukulele I bought also helped me a lot. And of course the very supportive people in my life. 
Okay now, I don't know how to properly end this post because I am still figuring out better ways to fight homesickness. But let me end it with this quote by Michael Landon Jr, just to share out some inspiration. Enjoy! 

"Somebody should tell us, right at the start of our lives, that we are dying. Then we might live life to the limit, every minute of every day. Do it! I say. Whatever you want to do, do it now! There are only so many tomorrows."

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